Welcome back to my weekly installment of “Organizing Myself to Health”.
My habit change challenge for this past week was to limit myself to one desert each day, to force myself to plan for things I wanted. Even if I ignore the holiday portion of this past week, I did not do awesome at this. One thing is for sure, a sugar addict is not cured in one week. My relationship with sugar is kind of what got me into this whole mess with my health anyways. I could give up big discount hamburgers and greasy fries in an instant and never look back. But every time I even consider giving up sugar, I start to panic.
Hello, my name is Mary and I’m addicted to Sugar.
I continue to lie to myself all the time. This is my last piece of junk cookie, and then I’m only going to eat homemade cookies or healthier treats. Just one more piece of this chocolate and then that craving will go away.
The truth is THERE IS NEVER ENOUGH SUGAR! I am never satisfied with sugar. Even after I feel full and sick, my mind still craves more sugar. That last sentence makes me want to stop and cry. Seriously, I am so addicted that I will eat sugar and junk food past that “sick full feeling”. Even when I can tell that the junk food is causing me harm, I just keep going because I don’t really know how to stop. I guess I just don’t know when enough is enough.
And that reminds me of a quote from this post about limiting clothes for children (“Setting practical limits to children’s clothing”).
I think I need more practice at this one. I did have a few awesome successes, even when no one was looking, but I’m going to have to get some more tools in my toolbox to figure this out. I will keep trying. What works for you?
(If you notice that I’m publishing this past 11 pm on Tuesday, it is because I’ve almost deleted it several times. Ahhhh!!!! I better hit publish while I’m willing.)
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Week 6′s challenge -
I’m going to connect with other people on a journey to get healthier. And I’m going to keep reigning in the sugar. I have to believe I can learn a new way to live, because I believe YOU can every time I teach a new organizing concept.
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Exhausted,
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